07.26

The last week of Rome is begining to make me feel slightly rushed. I have seen everything so many times that I feel comfortable too. I want to see things 'one last time' maybe in order to solidify their image in me. I think I passed the Pantheon about 10 time in the past month. Joe and I walked around downtown everyday we were in Rome on this trip. Its one of the few things that still get to me once I walk around it. The size and just planning of it amazes me. I laugh and think that all those poor people who made it probably hoped that after all that work it would stay up for a while, I'm sure they never imagined that it would be up almost 2 millenia. I hasn't rained, I want to see it when it rains. That will give me a good reason to come back. I am finding myself putting off some things so that I have a few things to see if i come back one day. I want to be able to see things for the first time and really appreciate them if I come back. At this point I've seen more than I had ever imagined to see in my life, I feel I would appreciate these other things another time. I also have had a small cathartic moment while here. We talked about that in class and I think I had mine. I decided that I want to be a teacher. I have been back and forth as to what to do when I graduate in December. I wanted to go to Design school but it seems like an incredibly expensive undertaking. I also have little experience in Design in my undergrad. I could possibly get a job in Graphic Design but I realized that I don't want to work in advertising or web design at all. I want to teach art or art history. I'm going to go to school for secondary teaching but maybe later I'll go back for my MFA or PHD to teach in college. I'm happy I realized this and I don't know why I had to be in Italy to realize it.